Sandi's in Piecing and it's getting better

[jay]

Dropping the rope is truly letting her go.
Sure hope it all turn out the way you want it to, Jay.

Thanks S2. I thought that maybe she was near the end of her MLC but after the last several days I can tell she's not.

I wonder if I should do a 180 and tell her that she is and that I overhead one of our kids tell the other that they thought she was. See did ask me if I thought that and I said I thought she going through something.

The other day she showed me a short story she wrote. There was enough truth to it that I could tell the main character was me.
It was not a easy thing to read. She showed me it as an example of how she dealt with not being happy with the M. She told me that for while she wished I would die. I ask when that was and it was before her EA. She says now she feels nothing about me. She did say we built a nice cosey place here and she knew our kids would hate her. She said she was scared. She still told me she wants me to talk to her as a friend and let her do what she wants. I thought I had been doing both. I guess I have become numb towards what she tells me now so it is easer to not believe any thing she says.

I normally wear jeans to work but this morning I have put on slacks to dress up. It is time to drop the rope.

Take care Sandi.

Jay

[Ms Jen]

I've only been DBing a short time, and I really value the input, advice and encouragement I've gotten from you, sandi!

It's SOO nice to have friends in your corner, esp when you thought you were trapped in a round room. LOL

[sandi2]

Thanks to all of you. I apprecite it. You guys and gals keep me going and give me a purpose to try to keep kicking....lol. We have a special family here in our community, don't you think? When I tell any of you that I care about you and even use the term "love", I mean it......maybe not the way that you love your spouse or child, but it is a special love never-the-less. I pray for all my the people here on the board. I call as many by name as i can remember and God knows the rest. I do pray that each of you find peace and happiness this year.

Sandi

[Tawnya]

{{{Sandi}}} Hope you are doing ok..haven't seen your sweet face around for a few days so just checking in

Hugs!

Tawnya

[sandi2]

Thanks hon, I tried to do some catching up on some neglected threads tonight. I have had some rough nights and last weekend from Thursday night through Sunday night was really tough. My doctor went to New York City Monday for a big council meeting from the specialist from all over the country regarding a new drug that has not come out for physicans to give yet and don't know when or if it will. He did not say they were making any claims about "healing" Firbromyalgia, but hoped it would help relieve some of the symptoms. Of course, I would prefer the healing, but I'd gladly and very gratefully accept helping. So, please say a little .......no, a big prayer for all Firbro patients' sake that they will find something soon. I meet more and more people that have this all the time. They all have the same reaction as I did when I was dianosed. They just can't believe it could cause that much pain and other things disorders that go along with it. It is amazing how so many are affected by this mysterious disease. It is equally distrubing to know how many are misdianosed as having Lupus or something else when it is this mess. Anyway, can't help but get my hopes sky high that something will be out soon. The first and only drug at the time that was ever even advertized for Firbro was Lyrica and when they finally begin making a few TV comercials about it, it started getting people's attention. That helps when that happens, you know? But, Lyrica didn't do much for me. However, anytime people are made more aware of physical disorders or handicapps or diseases.....the better. Then, the medical people come out with Cymbalta for the depression and pain, and my stomach couldn't handle that.......so, we will see what happens next....lol. I just wished they could find something for the chronic fatigue, b/c that bothers me as much, if not worse more often than the pain.....which I think I've told you that before. Repeating one's self is another sign......lol...no, just kidding. But, you know how we talk about people in MLC having "fog"? Well there is--for real, what is called Fibromyalgia "fog"! You feel just like your brain is in a thick fog and you can't think fast enough or it just goes blank---period. It is very embarrassing. But, I think I'm just losing my memory, more than having fog.....lol.

Well, it was about 2:30 a.m. when I got to bed this morning and got up at 6:00 a.m. to go to work......don't you know this has been a looooong day? Now, here it is a few minutes until midnight and I am still up. Have I mentioned that is another sypmtom? No sleep?

Thanks for checking on me and letting me vent. It helps.

Love ya,
Sandi

[MrBond]

Hi Sandi,

I hope you are doing much better. Don't know what many of us would do without your wise input. In fact in your posting to me, after my left home and I wondered if I should have gone dark at that point, you told me not to. And lo and behold she eventually came back!

Right now we're stuck in limbo and I'm not sure how to proceed. If you could once again take a look at my post in Affairs, I'd appreciate it.

Thanks!

[Tawnya]

{{{Sandi}}} Ugh my friend, I hate that you've had a rough week and I hope your doctor can get you on a good track..you deserve to not be in this much pain..you are so vital and awesome

I hope you are having a good night sleep and thanks for stopping by the threads you did!!

Tawnya

[mindfull]

Sandi:

Blonde moment!

I did know where to find you!

Hope all is well. I read about your health a few entries above. GOD! I'm praying for you.

Thank you for all of the support.

[Kristi R]

Sandi,

I am so sorry to hear you have been in so much pain. I have been thinking about you.

Were you able to look up any of those vitamins I told you about? I will be praying for you.
I hope things get better. If there is anything I can do for you please let me know. Because you have done so much for me. I want to return the favor if I can.


Kristi

[sandi2]

I'm glad I came to check out my own thread today. I am feeling kind of down b/c another weekend and I was stuck at home in my recliner/bed (as I call it). Didn't get to go to Church Sunday or do anything Saturday or today. I don't know why this seems to happen every weekend unless it is b/c I have to push myself Mon-Fri just to get to work. I have missed one day out of each week since Christams. That's not good. So, I appreciate everyone's concern and especially your prayers.

Kristi, I did check out the vitamins. You weren't kidding when you said they were expensive! I will have to wait until I get my credit card balance down before I can go that route. That credit card company is driving me crazy, b/c they keep going up on my finance charge even when I'm not charging anything. I don't know how they can do that, but I suppose they can do anything they want b/c they have you over a barrell. If I don't pay it, it will ruin my credit and if I file bankrupt will ruin my credit (which I've never done). But this is really getting me angry at them for doing me this way. I have paid what I owe them several times over and can't get my balance down. I have worked hard to have good credit but don't know how I am going to keep this up if they continue this.

Oh well, that's not what the issue is about.....it just has me depressed on top of my health problems. That's another thing, I thought maybe I could do without some antidepression meds and I'm finding out that maybe I can't. If I could just GAL, I think that would help with the depression......ya think? Seriously, I think that is what has me down more than anything b/c I'm like a hermit except when I go to work and then right back home again.

Anyway, sorry to be "dumping" and I do appreciate your concern. My doctor was going to New York to a special conference about a possible new medication they are hoping "may" help. Didn't say anything about "healing", just hoped it might help. Me too.

You all take care,
Sandi