Making my own good karma!!

[Silent Chrleader]

Yes, I know that NOTHING warrants the A. And my H has said that too, and he says it was the one time, but I know that he now considers himself "free" to do anything since he has asked for the divorce and sees it as only a matter of time now.

I try to take comfort in the fact that he's still going to C. He calls me now often (I rarely call him these days) but his calls are about finances and stuff. Every once in a while, he slips and still calls me "babe". The fact that he agreed to sell the houses, but is now talking about renting them, and has said that he is in no hurry to file for D. But, I know that ultimately this is still me looking for a reason to hope, and I need to just let go already!

I know today is just a bad day......I have been doing much better the past couple weeks, so I guess I was due for a klunker day........maybe my whores are moanin'? That's it, I'll blame it on peri-menopause! Ain't womanhood grand!

Actually, do you find it scary to think of being a "single woman over 40" in this day and age. I'm petrified really! The statistics are that we won't re-marry! I'm just not the "live alone" type! My Mom got me hooked or romance novels when I was a teenager! The thought of growing old alone just depresses the crap out of me!

And, by the way, if you don't mind my askin', where bouts in the northeast are you from? I'm not looking for too specific and ticking off the moderators, but we lived in Upstate NY for 7 years. It's really beautiful up there! I loved it!

Thanks again for you "ear", BM.

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