thanks for stopping by... I've been on and off lately... just can't find the time to jump on as much. ST (Crissy) I agree but I do feel that I need to start detaching more and leave the window cracked so to speak.
I am in a tough situation with Texas not having legal separation I feel I'm pinched financially with all the spending my H is doing and him not really feeling the affects of this seperation when he doesn't have to pay one bill. I have prayed and thought it over and had many good Christain friends share with me that I need to still keep the faith BUT I have to protect myself and my girls b/c my H is not looking out for our best interest. I know he will file this month and I'm just tossing up if I'm going to file first now ( I never thought I would until lately) I'm the only one caring about him in this whole mess and he could up and take money, remove me from insurance, and take OW on trips (all things he won't be able to do when you file.. it freezes all assests) I wish Tx had legal separation.. sucks. and I want to stall, stall, stall.
I also, believe that God has it all mapped out anyway as many of my fellow Christains have said. Doesn't he already know how this is going to end up so even if I file our my H does we can always stop it. I feel in my heart that my H will want to come home but I am now less certain that it will be anytime soon.... his affair has to run it's course and I do feel that a Divorce could be enough pressure to break them...
I talked to DB coach on Friday... it went better than thought. I'm going to work hard on my changes. It can't hurt right.
I'm torn and I will continue to pray about it...
Me: 38/H:40 M:7yrs TG: 10yrs 2Girls: 4yr & 7 month old Bomb 8/22/08 OW/EA/PA 8/23/08 with 25yr old Moved out 9/22/08
