Just a bit down I guess I got too excited about the coach and all of the positive stuff. We are still very friendly but it feels like she forgot all of the stuff she told me. Over the past couple of days we had some positive stuff even talked about how we need to be friends. Tonight we ate dinner together she thanked me, but she mentioned that she had to pick something up at OM's an accessory for the indoor bicycle trainer he lent her. I just acted as if it was nothing. next thing I know she says she is going to have a drink at the bar but doesn't say with who! My mind is in over drive and I know and I shouldn't give it any energy but it is really hard not to get freaked out. I didn't show her a reaction,she thanked me for dinner on the way out I said see ya (in a positive voice).
This should be expected and I guess I need to back off a bit, I only hope that nothing happens but I guess I can't control it. I have to remember all of the positive stuff.
Cheers
Jeff
ME 44 W 32 M 5 T 6
no kids
June 08 I don't want to be married it's not you it's me
