Making my own good karma!!

[Silent Chrleader]

Feeling depressed. I told H about S17 saying we weren't a family. His reply was that S17 was just using that to manipulate us and make us feel bad. H said we're not the first people to go through a divorce for pete's sake........

He also said he talked to the bank about a refi on main house. This would bring payments down and then he could list it for sale or rent.....I just said "fine, whatever you decide..." I have no idea what H is thinking as far as the long run. To make the "split" easy we were supposed to sell everything.....now he's messin' with the plan.....it really doesn't matter. It's a community property state. There's no way he can afford both houses AND a place to live himself if we divorce. So, renting the place would just delay filing for divorce more, which is fine by me........

I know he still doesn't know what he wants and this makes me wonder if deep down he is delaying things on purpose because he's not sure if he really wants it......but I know that's just setting myself up for disappointment.......I know, NO expectations.

Just feeling down today. I miss him. The guy in his body is not my H. I miss the man I married.