I'm so sorry, Hmama. If your baby lived to the ripe old age of 17, you must have been an excellent dog mom. I lost 2 beloved old ones in 2008 + a rattie, and am currently caring for another with terminal cancer. I know how tough it is-- the losses just seem to keep piling up.
I feel for your D-- when my sis and I lost our childhood dog, he was exactly same age as she was, so she couldn't remember a time without him.