I really messed it up. Sorry so long

[ms ladybug]

We're still here. Weekends tend to really be slow around these boards.

First about the Legal Separation. I'm not sure, but I looked up some info, and as far as I can see. If both parties don't sign the papers or if both parties DON'T agree to the separation, it automatically becomes a divorce. THAT is what I can see about it so far, but I'm no expert. I just looked up some info, because my h told me that he's filing today for legal sep

It's a very good thing that she agreed to see the church elder. VERY GOOD. You need to be strong during the meeting. No tears, just business-like. What she needs most right now is to see that you are OK on your own. Even though you are dying inside, she can't see that. Even if you breakdown the minute you get in your car, don't let her see it.

Now, about the possibility of an OM. This can be the one thing that will kill you. Wondering "who", and "is there". Try not to go down that road as hard as it is to avoid. I know for myself, I can't avoid it and always wonder about it, but I may never know the truth, and I have to be alright about not knowing. You too may never know. But the thoughts will kill you.

I know I'm not much help, I'm in a pretty deep funk right now, and have been unable to pull myself up. I'll pray for you, really. Please do the same for me.