I'm actually in a place where I'm good with myself. I have a pretty good day to day life. I always have been a pretty independent person. I have a responsible, creative position in a very stressful, intense industry so I work about 50 hours a week at that.
It's not so easy taking more time for "my life" without checking in as we have two kids and coordination needs to be done. I've been getting closer to the kids. As close as a teen will let you get.
I have been using this time to get more social. Rebuilding old friendships, trying new things like classes to build new ones. Also exploring my spiritual side more with meditation, reading, and attending several of the events offered by the Buddhist mediation center located locally.
I also have my C sessions.
Long term, I'm in an observation and clarification mode right now. Just taking in information to make decisions when I get clear. I figure I will be ready in about 6 months to take action. That's obviously a SWAG estimate. I don't have enough information at this point in time to confidently take action.
Regarding the websites, its just more secrets that are coming out. I don't mind the sites or the content, its the secrecy and exclusion that hit a nerve. That and it feels a bit insulting when someone is caught in something they are obviously embarrassed about and they say, "what are you talking about...it wasn't me."
Married - 19 years Noticed Problem - Aug 2008 THE Conversation - Oct 2008
The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.