Hm...so I called...and once again she did not answer her phone...but she did call back about an hour later for me to say goodnight to my baby boy. She even talked with me for a while after he walked away from the phone - we talked just about him - how he was feeling better and how he had eaten a lot yesterday. There was still some tension in her voice - but I just stayed friendly...I should have gotten off the phone first - but she beat me to the punch, saying, "okay, well I'll let you get back to your evening."
Just going to keep the positive attitude going...and I will not get trapped in her anger or bitterness...not at all...especially since I wouldn't be surprised if she eventually tries to push some major buttons just to try to force things back into what she thinks is our norm - an exchange filled with anger and tension...
I'm going to Vegas for work on Tuesday...I'll be there almost a week...thankfully one of my closest friends will be there working as well. So we'll get a lot of time to talk and I'll have a chance to GLA away from home. Only problem is that I'm not really into Vegas at all...since I don't gamble, don't care to do anything that stays in Vegas, and am very cautious with how I spend money on anything these days...
...one last thought...talking with her tonight about our baby, it almost felt like how we used to talk on the phone when I would be out of town on work...just no talk about us...only talk about our son. Another baby step? Hard to say...maybe just another sign of how much I've removed anger and tension from my life...I did a personality test this afternoon - and it said the defining characteristic of my life is: calming.
