After writing the last post I went back up to bed. My W told me about dreaming about a very bad Hail storm. (Two nights to go before I can sleep well again. I think I had a dream about hearing a Gospel Church Choir). We talked a little and I then my wife asked me if I thought she was having a MLC. That may have been prompted by me asking if she thought I was having one after I had quit one of my jobs. I said I thought she was going through something and had changes some this month.
We did go over our finances and our monthly bills. After words we talked about what a change of lifestyle it would be for me and that would not be nice for her to do that to me. She said she wants to work towards having separate households. We did talk about our R/M and about what she sees as the two greatest problems. I believe she believes neither can be overcome. She said she has tried to teach me to manage money all our M and thinks it is impossible. The other was that she felt scarred as far as physical intimacy. She could not put how into words why it happened and that it had built up for a long time. She gave me some concrete examples of how she reacts when I do certain things. I asked her if she thought she might feel the same way towards someone other than me. She thought that she might.
All in all it was a calm discussion that I felt we both wanted to have. There may be a small door open still but I need to not get my hopes up too high. She also asked why I wanted to stay with her.
She will be leaving for another two week trip in several days. We hope to go skiing before that.
Still don't know if we will be in the same bed tonight.
