You are a glutton for punishment. Please put a sign on your mirror. "Do not fall in love with selfish a@@holes". You need to move on. Get a life. You H has abrogated all his responsibilities to his family. He is sitting in a sandbox making mudpies, and that's what he wants to do with his life. Go out, look for a man, not a child. This one is addicted to marijuana and probably booze and has regressed to childhood. Look further. You are bound to find something. (And take SS with you.)