I am doing better. At this point if he walks I will still be so upset that the life I planned for myself will not happen like I wanted it to. But I am tired of putting in all the work. If he can't choose to be excited about me then what is the point...
Of all things on a soap opera the other day a girl was telling her ex "I tried and tried to love you as much as you loved me". He said, "You shouldn't have to TRY that hard to love me". She said, "I know, that's why I left"...
I think it is true that love is a choice and that it takes effort, commitment, and sacrifice to be with the one you love. It is not a cake walk. But if you need to be drug by horses to the point of even wanting to make the effort, then something is seriously wrong...
