Trixi aka "The Pitbull who can't let go"

[Trixi]

Not doing as good today. Wish I could be there to "support" him tomorrow when he goes to court. Feel like I am somehow abandoning him. (Ironic, I know, given that he has abandoned me.)

I also wish (preparing to duck for 2x4 swing) that I would have offered to help H get to individual counseling. :ducks: Now, let me explain-- just because he didn't feel the need before, doesn't mean I shouldn't be supportive if he is FINALLY feeling the need now. I think he does need some help- and not just regarding how he feels about me.

But the "I guess I'd lean towards breaking things off" bell has rung, and I have pulled away, so it's too late. I just can't help but wonder how things would have gone if I would have offered to help him get to counseling. And if maybe it would have been a more 'thought out' decision, instead of one that was sort of backed into. KWIM? I have a real mind-f*ck going on right now-- it keeps ringing in my head that he wasn't saying that was what he wanted to do NOW, but if he HAD to decide NOW...UGH UGH UGH. I use this technique with my buyers to learn what they like and don't like and to help them keep the houses straight. I will say about every 3 third house "If you had to pick *today* which one you want of what we have seen so far, which one would you pick?" And I ask it knowing that it is not their ultimate decision. In fact, I don't want it to be their ultimate decision-- I just want to get feedback and help them focus on their priorities as we move forward.

crap.
crap crap crap.