Puppy, When I read your initial post about getting D, I always felt that this was still unresolved business. Now in catching up with your sitch, I see that you are going to give Retro a try. That is great. M is a tough road, there is no shame in saying that we never really knew or understood our spouses even in long term marriages. This could be the most exciting times in your life.
I came from a family that believed you stayed married for life. If you weren't happy too bad you just put up. When my grandparents were married 60 years and they were posing in front of their cake, my cousin asked my grandfather how does it feel to be married for 60 long years...my grandfather said "if I killed a man I would be a free man today", my grandmother smacked his arm. It was what it was.
We will be praying for you.
Me 53 H 50 D16, D29 M 22 years bomb 7/08 INH - alien pod replaces H 8/08 - OW (direct report), I work there also bomb II - H moves 10/1 expose ow 10/22 D to be final 9-09
