Snodderly, thanks, yes I sat on the couch watching Santa Clause 2 with the girls on either side of me, holding me and my son on my lap, I felt in heaven !!!!! \:\) I love that they still cuddle that much with me. I hope it never stops !

Trusting, I am so sorry about your mom...it is just insane how a person can just change - just like that, at the blink of an eye.

I have been reading up on Narcism and narcistic behaviour, it's scary but I see a LOT of it in my H. They create an alternate personality when they go through what they feel is a crisis in their life, and shove away the TRUE ego. (the H's we knew...) Anyway, the push that ego so far away that they start believing that they truly are this new person and they will even do 'good' or make themselves the hero or good guy to keep feeding the new ego. They cannot do this for long, therefore they keep on finding ways to feed that ego until maybe one day the awaykening takes place...this usually happens when another crisis occurs. The thing is....many of them don't even wake up at that stage...and it makes me feel so sad to think this is what has happened to my H. This would explain the thrill seeking and the change of scenery...

Oh well, I keep reading what you posted on your Thread Trusting, and it gives me hope and courage to keep on going !! Thank you !

Love Cinders xxx

"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus

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