WAW - Possible MLC I need help, WAWs advice IV

[LucasE]

She's right, of course. It could be worse. It would do me a lot of good to consider that when I am in my depths. I also have noticed that many of the people in my own village have never loved as deeply as I have. Perhaps if I had never felt the joy of a wonderful M and the thrill of fantasy of an ideal future then I could get over all of this easier. But...

OM in the driveway. ARRRG. That is so annoying.

Hi LD. I have been riding invisible shotgun with you for about a month and you have helped me through the holidays. The Holidays. God be praised! They are over. Now we can comfortably go back to the regular purgatory that is our life. The next twist of the knife doesn't happen until Valentines day.

I haven't posted since you were still happily married. At least as far as you knew, right? Sorry to be so familiar, but we are brothers in this hell and you have helped me through some really dark times and maybe if I jump back into posting I can help you. I couldn't even remember my password or I would have commented weeks ago when your W was doing whatever messed up stuff she was doing weeks ago. I think the last time I posted I was on a business trip to South Africa. Well, I just got back from a vacation with my sister's family in Costa Rica. I keep taking these trips thinking that when I come back my W will have changed back. So far she hasn't.

You are so prolific. You write so much. Lately, I have known that when I am feeling desperate I can see how you are doing, and usually you are struggling the same way that I am. That and the fact that you have AmyC's ear. She cares about you. She believes that you have a chance. That means more to me than anything else. It's as if she has been on the same side of the fence as our Ws and is slipping us notes that our Ws would not want us to see. AND you have FH! His W said some of the exact same things that our Ws said and he conquered that demon.

So why am I jumping in now? Well, the image of that POS in your driveway was too much for me to handle. I had to break the silence. As you know, of course, it isn't him. It is your W. And it isn't her either, is it Amy? It is the monster. The way you wrote your last post it looks like it didn't bother you too much, but it sure bothered me. Then I went out and had a great time with some friends. See how close we are?

Anyhow, thanks for posting. I hope I haven't freaked you out. I'm sure my thread is in here somewhere and you can see that I am legit. I am praying for you.

Oh, and dday! WTHeck? I had written him off and look at him now. My fingers are crossed for dday. I think I need to look closer at his plan of action. Did I mention that I am a doormat? I thought it was my best course of action as I have yet to confirm the OM. I have been waiting for confirmation to get my butt off the floor but I'm starting to contemplate a different approach.

Anyhow, again, this is your thread. You are doing great. You are my inspiration. Please keep going. Please keep posting. Please keep listening to AmyC. Please keep giving up your anger and focusing on your D17 and your GAL. Because if you do, I will too and maybe the other invisible sadsacks in this car will too. Our Ws need our help even if they won't take it right now. Was it FH who told us what unconditional love really meant? Even if it doesn't work out. It makes sense to me.

God bless you. L.

P.S.(My W snapped her front axel on her car last week on a curb.)