I know this is off subject...but you said you went into NYC to look over a renovation and then you have done your projects around the house, too. It sounds like you have an interesting job. I am data management secretary at the local high school now, finishing my master's in May. Maybe it's crazy, but I am always interested in hearing about "cool jobs" to pass on to the kiddos who are looking for interesting fields to go into after college. They are all such amazing kids with the most amazing stories. So I guess I am interested in hearing a little more about what you "do". Maybe it is TMI, and if so, I apologize.
I hope you get to a decision that gives you peace. And I think you will know the decision when you get to it, and looking back, you will think "Well, that decision was obvious! What took me so long!!??"
Good luck.
Mel
"Standing knee deep in a river and dying of thirst."