Hi Veronica, I guess it is the small changes that might start to matter...since it has to be those baby steps, right? This afternoon, when she came back to pick up our baby boy, she did something else that was different - she asked me if I had any extra diapers for him to have at school...of course she added, "I think I took care of the last two times" (which wasn't quite true...but it doesn't matter) - it was interesting to have her ask me for the diapers - since she had avoided doing anything like that for the last two months.
Still, even with that little difference, there was still the anger...since she actually huffed and grunted when I said goodbye and mentioned that I would call later to see how baby was doing. Even so, when it comes to my son, I just don't care - she can be as angry as she wants to be - I have every right in the world to know how he is doing.
NW - I'm so glad that you'll get more time with your son again soon - and I'm sure you'll have no problem doing what you have to do if your W stays in the house. Did my mandarin not make sense? Sometimes I forget how to say certain things...
Kalni - thanks for stopping by - I know you're still going through a lot - so I really appreciate you're taking the time to offer me some support. Who knows how long it will be until we get to the next stage - whatever stage that is...
Last night I got myself all worked up into thinking that there was an OM...only to think about my ideas today (in daylight) and realize that they're based on nothing. Even on New Year's Eve...when I called to say hi to my baby boy, she was just at home - by herself with him - and she sounded very sad...even before she moved out she wasn't secretive or anything...and didn't do her typical thing of telling me how great someone else was in comparison to me...anyway...my point is...my mind got the worst of me last night...and almost had me dwelling on stuff that just wouldn't matter even if it were true...since I still would have to continue doing the same thing - which is taking care of me - focusing on me - and relying on myself - that's how I'll be a better father to my kids - a better friend to myself - and a better partner to someone in the future.
