Had a bit of a low morning. I felt frustrated, such sparse contact and yet he tells mutual friends he is confused and doesnt konw what to do. But as my BFF pointed out, he told his BMF back in February that he thought he may have made the wrong decision in leaving me, and yet he didnt tell me that time either, nor did we get back together.
His BMF said my ex told him he didnt feel as though he could talk to me about it...(clearly!). I wish I had asked BMF what it was ex felt he couldnt talk to me about. It wont change it, you can take a horse to water...
As for the s*x stuff T and Mish.. we had no probs there as far as I know, he said before and after the bomb it was the best ever.. but then, after the bomb he once snapped "yet".. so he must've been wanting to sleep with someone new. Maybe thats it, this ageing/dying thing..maybe he was freaked out at the commitment and M looming and the thought of sleeping with the same woman for the rest of his life scared him. I feel let down though, as he always had such good morals and integrity with this stuff.. he literally prided himself on never having a one-night stand. Perhaps I didnt see the real him, perhaps he's changed, or perhaps this is a phase. He's not sleeping around though at least, he's in a 1:1 R with her.
I think I need to reach out, email him thanks for the present. I dont know if others would agree. I get wildly different advice these days (ranging from turn up at his flat in just an overcoat, to phone him, email him, dont contact him but wait, to have nothing to do with him at all until he is out of MLC, lol).
