That's very true...I guess sometimes we just don't know and certainly can't see !
So, I spent a wonderful day at home today ! Just lazying around watching tv and doing the laundry. Kids are at H's till tomorrow and I haven't had much rest these holidays, so it felt good !
I am having a 'tense' period with my father...he seems annoyed much at my mother, and he has stopped working this last year, which puts them together quite often. Now I often hear him say nasty things about how H is out and about with the ow (my dad is the type of person who keeps everything bottled up - deep inside) and he seems ademant (sp) that I do not find another man. He says it will only complicate things and that most men are scum anyway...
I think he's afraid of me and him being hurt again. He used to be very very good pal's with H and now of course H isn't his pal anymore. I feel bad for my dad, but I do want love in my life again, one day. Whether that will be H (if by some miracle he changes...) or someone else.
My mother talks about H ALL the time, sometimes she still expects me to know all about his comings and goings and I have to remind her that I no longer know what H is up to daily or hourly. It's tough, and to be honest it's been getting tougher the more I am letting go.
Anyone with the same experience ?
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
