Friday has not been such a good day. Too many painful statements H has made.
If I could aford it, I would leave in a heartbeat. I would like to find someplace to go for awhile, just to see if he would miss me. Just a couple of weeks. Go to work during the day, and someplace else at night. Let him handle all of the bills and stuff, without any idea where I was or what I was doing.
He tells me that he knows how good he has it, but the fact that he can't seem to show me that should tell me something. He doesn't have any fun with me. He doesn't want to be with me in any public place, just some horrible, terrible, mean stuff.
I guess the alien is back. Jeeze, I sure didn't miss that.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
It sounds like he misses her, sort of. And he is really having doubts about our R.
H actually told me today about when he was with her, how he told her he was going to leave me for her. Gerrrrr. There he immediately said, well you know, when your're having an A you tell each other all kinds of BS. I don't think she really thought I would really leave you.
Then he told me he was confused. He didn't want to hurt me. He aske me if I was alright, said that he loved me, would be terribly hurt if we got D.
I think the guy is going nuts.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
I didn't think about that. She may have. Or, perhaps more likely, she got the letter and DIDN't contact him. He was pretty mad when I told him that I had sent it. He told me that since I had "closure" with her, he also needed closure with her. We fought about that. I told him that if he had any contact with her at all, I was finished with him.
Things has been up and down since then.
He did agree with why I didn't want him to contact her, said that he wouldn't if I didn't want him to, but then has been all over the map since then.
He already did suck me into a fight. One too many negative comments to me today... He went upstairs to bed and left me downstairs on my own. Whatever. I am pretty tired of this treatment.
I'm all for letting him spin. Been thinking about how I will let him spin tomorrow.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
Morning Hope, Sorry it is back down the hill on the roller coaster for you. I hate that! Trying to behave like a duck isn't as easy as it sounds.
I must say I did laugh at your Easter Ducks, not funny, I know and as much as I love animals that would have killed me at the time, but I wouldn't have known that either.
Take care of yourself Hope! I am thinking about you!
