A little hitch the skiing for this weekend is off. She spoke with the couple she was going with and I guess her friends husband was inviting some of his friends, she said the car was full but I think she may just want to hang with her girlfriend. I don't know her friends husband. If it was just her friend and her friends husband it would be ok. So she said we could go together next weekend. I was a little dissapointed but didn't tell her that.
I guess alot has happened in the passed week so she may also feel overwhelmed. I can't get too greedy.
I still feel knots in my stomach about the OM I am still insecure about whether she has ended it for good only time will tell. In the mean time I have to be the man that can take care of her.
I would love to just sit down with her and just talk for hours in person, not on the phone or by text. I still gotta remember Marathon!!!!
So much has happened but it's hard not to be skeptical about if the changes are real. Still being positive but it helps to articulate how I feel. I am scared because I was ready to move on and now I have to open up and I feel somewhat vunerable again.
I know it's a dance but boy it takes alot out of you especially when your'e and overthinker like me!!(LOL)
Looking forward to my session with my DB coach today at 2pm, I will post any tidbits of advice that she gives me.
ciao for now,
Jeff
ME 44 W 32 M 5 T 6
no kids
June 08 I don't want to be married it's not you it's me
