New poster, random thoughts

[Silent Chrleader]

What I hate most is the thought that my H will likely find another love, and then when the luster fades from that one, he will see that that's just life, but he will already be with the other person, so he will stay with her. That is what I see very possible in the future, and it just breaks my heart. Such a waste. Throwing away something good for no good reason. H's A with the secretary was a one-nighter he maintains, but also has said that he has a real drive to experience other women. Our C has said that he doesn't see H turning back or even looking back until he has fulfilled this drive.

And I believe that marriage has value and should be sacred unless there is abuse......but if H doesn't agree, I can't make him. So, right now I am standing for my M, and will so long as I feel the way I do right now. But, I am living each day doing what makes me happy. And if it comes to pass, that someone walks into my life that really feels right and makes me happy, then I will not throw that gift away.