TOH, Everyone wants to see you be a success with your crafts. You may think we are very hard on you, but we aren't. We are just trying to help you over the huge hurdle that's be sitting in your way for such a long time.
Now, that you've cleaned out a nice spot for your work area, I say go, girl! You can do this. You are going to be a success! Never say can't, because we all know that you can do whatever you put your mind to.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.