hi all... I keep trying to trust H & have been vulnerable with him about my co-dependency.
He turns it around & calls me a victim.. (12 times in the past week) since I have shared that with him. I have told him at least 1/2 of those times.. please don't label me... that is not what I am calling myself, you are not hearing my thoughts or feelings.
I finally sent him the following text.. Your choice to use words to label & demean me. I have asked U 2 stop, U have continued. U keep poking at trust I give U. I share things about co-depend, D14, $$, jobs, friends & b/c I feel unsafe now, will not B sharing as much.
He called to apologize... sort of.. he is in his 'poor me pity me' party. "I failed, I wasn't enough again"
S19 told us both off last night.. he's tired of this crap. he sees part of the issues but not all of them & of course he thinks (like most men & all teenagers) he knows how to 'fix' it.
Of course for H, that was just fuel for the fire of how I'm doing horrible things to our family & look at the effect of my WA..on it... yeah, yeah... I know. If I accept all the blame.. there's none left to go around. works out wel for him...ugg...
not a pretty day today... feeling defeated & hopeless. Have the papers up on the computer & am tempted to send them. I'm not apathetic enough yet.. I'm just tired.
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Last edited by Bridgestone; 01/02/0908:20 PM.
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