Dear TOH, You fixing a corner in the basement for painting is a great idea for yourself... now use it.
These are the baby steps that we do for ourselves. More will come.
Thinking about your future and what to do can be overwhelming and hard.. take it one step at a time...you are doing well..
I am sorry that NYEve was hard.... holidays of any kind bring back the good times and what we had...it is hard but it will get better..we tend to grasp the familiar because it is what we know and are comfortable with and makes us remember the good and not the bad. It is very scary to think of the future when you are in such limbo..but when you think of the future think of what YOU are about and what it can possibly hold for YOU and your girls..
I repeat to myself all the time "don't look back" and it really helpes me and still does on days that I get down it's been 2 years since D and yet I still fall down in the pit but not for long... I choose to live with optimisim and a positive outlook.. I know that you are not there yet but doing things for YOU will make such a difference in yourself... I hope that I have helped...
((((TOH))) Itsy
M54 H54 married 30 years Prostitues and Other women "100's" 10/7/2004 Prostitue/Junkie girlfriend 6/04-1/07? Left 1/5/05 returned 1/9/05 Asked h to leave 4/2005 Had to, prostitues OW 5/2005 not a prostitue Divorced 9/2006
