Hi Veronica, The source, the source, the source...that's where a lot of the growth has happened for me - I noticed on your thread where you mentioned that sometimes it's hard to do what we have to do when the spouse is still in the house...and I think it's completely true. I'm at this odd point right now, where I am convinced that if my W hadn't moved out we would divorce without a doubt - but not that she is out of the house - I have had all this space and calm to look at my life - and see so many things that I want to change in myself. I have no idea if she'll get to that point - or if she's willing to take the journey for herself - so far she hasn't indicated as much at all - but I do know that as I continue to rely more on myself I get healthier and healthier each day.
Thanks also for just reminding me to focus on today - and not try to take care of tomorrow until it comes - sometimes that pain in my chest - that still unfamiliar and confusing feeling - just makes me think of her...even if I am telling myself to focus on other things...of course, I've been kind of sick for over a week now - and haven't been able to run or exercise much in my usual way...so that's been getting to me too...hopefully I'll get over this cough soon (it's been keeping me up at night too...and I think I made it worse by going for a couple runs back in Ohio...).
As for the future plans...I also tell myself that as the market eventually turns around funding for teachers will be restored...
