Thanks for the gentle a** kicking! I really needed that. I'm doing horribly at GAL! I just seem to be stuck in the mindset that she is still my W and she still comes first. I went into NYC today to check on a renovation project I had going at work, and the first thing I did when I got here was to call her and tell her how wonderful the place turned out. She congratulated me, but then when I told her that I was going to get together w/my friend and I'd be home later she said "you don't need to tell me that. It's none of my business what you are doing and I don't need to know." I said that I was just being courteous and what was the big deal. Anyhow, I really do suck at all of this. I'm still way too involved with her emotionally, and I just can't seem to stop my thoughts from drifting to our past. I've decided to rent out the spare room and make a way financially for her to move out. I do still hope that our marriage will reconcile, but I just don't see it happening as long as we are under the same roof. I think this goes against the time spent together principal, but the fact is she still communicates regularly with the OM and lies about that, so as long as that is going on I don't see any hope for our M. Also, she just doesn't know what life will be like without me, and maybe she needs to taste that. I have a prospective renter coming by on Tuesday to rent the room. Wish me luck...
