Hey SC, J sounds lovely. Do take it all very slowly, but dont shut the door on anyone. You never know what the future will bring and one could never have too many friends - male and female.

Interesting that J noted how much you dwell on h. Something for you to think about, I guess. I have been with h 30 years, since I was 19 so I know how hard it is not to think about them.

You are doing great. This is all hard stuff, really hard. Keep moving forward. Let's let this be the year the LBS's shine.