He does not acknowledge that he has caused pain, or that he has anything really to make up for.
He does not find himself able to even VERBALLY express deep and profound love for you at this point. Let alone show ANY physical manifestation of such a love towards you.
He has already resorted to anger and accusations towards you because you are frustrating him. Well, I am sorry, he does not get to be frustrated quite this early. His patience must be nearly infinite at this point, after all he has put you through.
This is not a man who recognizes ANYTHING about what the past couple years have meant to you.
He simply wants BACK what he once HAD.
A relationship where little is required, and where a small effort on his part will be acceptable to you.
Clearly I am not there, so I cannot know for certain that you have given him every chance to both understand your needs and begin to meet those needs. But it sounds from your posts like you have.
Going on the trip was a last ditch effort in my opinion. I thought that perhaps there, away from the pressures of work, he would SHOW you the depth of his love for you, that he would EXPRESS how much he needs you in his life.
I am now not sure that he is capable of such a thing.
If he is now to the point of blaming you for the lack of progress, he is not the man that he needs to be.
He should be turning over EVERY stone, making EVERY effort, paying ANY price to win your love back. And I don't care what anyone else has to say about him being afraid and scared. It's absolutely ridiculous to think that a grown man could be THIS clueless.
I am left with believing that it's just not that important to him.
It is time to move on.
Perhaps when papers are filed, he will find his manhood.
It is certain that, for now at least, he has left his manhood far behind. He is nothing but a little boy.
Blessings,
Bill
"Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there are footprints on the moon."
