Hi TOH, Happy New Year to you. Make it the year you want it to be. Lots of hard work ahead of you but I know you are not afraid of that. Lots of opportunities,lots of choices and lots of new prospects. Yes it is scary, it can be exciting too.
They had to drag me kicking and screaming into a new life, the forced sale of my beloved home, leaving the place I had lived for over 20 years, raised my children,and made a new garden and cultivated land-I had made my life's work, so I know the loss you speak off.
The hopes and dreams the life you thought you had the future you thought was mapped out, growing old together with the love of your life, all gone, lost.
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO now begins the choices,for you and your children, animals, pets all those who rely on you. Scary wow yes but what is the alternative? You are still young and a whole world and life awaits you. Do not let this man rob you of anymore of it.
Good for you for getting your craft area ready, you obviously are a creative person so create the picture/painting of the life you want/wish for. H is NOT ALLOWED in those paintings, pictures.That's the rule.
So many of us have trod this path before you, so many have lost all we held dear and yet we ar all still here, living a different life, a better life in many cases.
Some of us live it alone but fill it with joy and happiness just the same. Many have new partners and can't believe how long they stared at the closed door, wishing and hoping.In truth many have said the life they pinned for only existed in their heads. The reality was of a much different marriage.
I sometimes feel you get a hard time from some posters but I know they just care about you and are willing you to move ahead. Get yourself a bonfire going and write down all your negative thoughts, cards, pictures anything that keeps you stuck in the past, in the what was. Watch as it is consummed by the fire,til all thats left are ashes, bury those if you wish and give them a decent burial!
Then START anew, blank canvas all for you.
I wish you every happiness in your new life, I wish you confidence in your own ability to rise from the ashes. To turn to a fresh new page in the first day of the rest of your life. How good is that, a clean slate. Hurt and pain all wiped away. You are cleansed and have a heart that is just waiting to be filled with all the good things that you will make happen. I am sad that so many good and wonderful people who used to be in surviving are gone now but I would suggest you read over there.
Time to move ahead, maybe MLC is not for you. Post wherever that's just my op. Take time away and just get your plans formulated. Sorry this is sooo long but I needed to "talk" to you. I just know you are going to make this a year for you.
