If you think that way then you will lose. You have to make changes for/within yourself and if you still think you have lost, then how can you even think your h will someday come back.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19