look back through the many many pages of my threads, do you not think that I have learned to be kind, to forgive, and to love unconditionally? Long long time ago. After ALL this man has done, all I have done as reactions to him, all of doesn't matter at the end of the day. I still love him with all my heart.
the defeat I am talking about is accepting the reality that I have lost and may never have the life and the man that meant so very much to me again. Not saying that I will stop living my life. Life still goes on, just not the way I had planned. Just giving up on my old dreams and trying to come up with new ones.
M41 H42 D17 Adopted N14 M22 T24 "Bomb" 4/07 Sep 8/07 Admitted OW 11/07(only to me) OW back 12/4/07 PA on off thru 7/08 says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08 D final 7/09 Moving on and up!!
