Maybe I should be in piecing part 5?

[Hope4us]

Puppy, You're not saying anything I haven't thought for a long time now. I don't trust her motives either, what ever they are.

But....yesterday, again, there were some interesting events.

At one point, W was on the computer and I looked over and she was on her private email account. The one I've always worried about being her secret way to contact OM. So I got up and walked past her and she didn't close the window, hide anything, etc. I came back to the couch and sat there and looked over a couple times and she was opening emails and not hiding anything. And from the ones I could see, they were just emails from places she'd ordered stuff from, etc.

So, if I look at this from the outside, it seemed to be her way of being open with me. Almost like saying, see, here is my private email account and I have nothing to hide.

The other really interesting thing that happened......We had a really good day. S16 and I went out shopping for a bit. Give a 16 yr old a gift card for Christmas and it burns a hole in his pocket if he doesn't use it.....

But while we were out, I sent W a TM and asked her if she wanted a Latte, to which she replied she did, in a quite excited manner. So I brought one home. And she thanked me warmly for doing so.

We started watching all the football games and enjoying some New Year's cheer. Whole afternoon/evening was just a lot of fun. Good conversations, laughing, joking (even quite a few sexual jokes), etc. About 11:00, I really wanted to stay up and keep enjoying the evening, but I decided it was time to "end the conversation first" like DB suggests. Leave her wanting kind of thing. So I got up and said I was going to bed and told her goodnight and she replied in the most disappointed voice "good night".

So...Two days, one her primping for me, doing the things I like to her hair, wearing perfume and almost putting on a show for me. The next day, really good day with conversation and laughing and joking going on and a disappointed response from W when I went to bed.

Maybe this detaching stuff is working. If she is playing me and has no intention of trying to make us work, I'm ready to move on anyway. But the last couple days have seemed to lead me to believe otherwise.

More good detaching, GALing today and the rest of the weekend. Taking the car to get some minor work done this morning, taking S20 back to school this afternoon and I think I'll spend some time there with him before coming home, so won't be a lot of time together with W today. Not sure about tomorrow, but Sunday I'll be gone most of the day on the nature/birdwatching hike. Something I LOVE, but since we've moved I've not done much as all my birdwatching buddies are 2.5 hours away. Maybe I need to find a local group and begin spending time doing that.

It'll be interesting to see how she is today.