Trying flirting on for size!

[ACJ]

I'm feeling a litle melancholy today. It sucks to be alone at New Year. I mean that in the sense of having no special person in my life as I did have my beautiful girls with me as the clock struck midnight. I did have a steady stream of people come visit me yesterday for my open house but not as many as usual.

I think I am ready to go back to work now. The time off has been great and knowing that I don't have to go back to my old job has relieved so much stress but now I just need company again. I need to be in a situation where I don't have time to reflect and remember. Even after all this time it is still too painful.

Don't get me wrong I'm still determined that nothing and no-one is going to ruin my year BUT for today at least the previous happy times are haunting me a little. I think I just need a good cry and then I will be fine