Well after spending NYE home alone while H was "ice fishing" I did a lot of thinking, soul searching, and listening.
I know that he was with OW last night. He made a point to tell me that his cell was acting up and if I needed to get a hold of him to call his work cell (yeah right). He sent me a TM at 1 am and merely said Happy New Year. H sent me a TM this am at 1030 to say "in route". Couldn't be bothered to call and check on kids or anything.
Then when H gets home he is chipper, talking about going and doing family stuff this afternoon, telling me all these details of what they did, but wearing clothes that he didn't bring with him yesterday. What a crock. He was overly attentive to the kids, more than usual, which I'm sure was his guilt.
So after supper I asked if I could talk to him and said, "I think that we need to live seperately for a while. I suspect that you have some strong feelings for this OW and I cannot live in the same house with you while you are continuing to disregard my feelings. I have asked you to stop contact and you have refused, so I think you need to leave for a while. When you are ready to work on our R and leave OW out of the picture, I will be here."
I also said to him that he never even apologized for spending the night at her house, h just apologized for lying about where he was. I called him on several lies over the last week and he hasn't accepted responsibility for any of them. Well, I need to take care of myself and I can't do that with him in the same house as me.
H kept saying that he didn't know where he would go. I suggested his parents house (they know all about this and think that his behavior is disgusting). He wanted to wait until the weekend to speak with them and I said that would be fine.
I feel a little more peaceful now. I'm terribly sad that my M is this rocky, but I know that this is the best thing for me and my kids. they need a happy mom and I can't be that with this disrespect and behavior going on in my home.
