Thank you for the responses. I know that my posts can come off very negative, but I am ok for the most part. Yesterday actually went better than expected and I welcomed the new year with my kids and couldn't have had a better time.
I am looking back on all that went wrong and trying to learn from it all. I know that there are things that I did to contribute to the end of my marriage, but I also know that I fought it and gave it all I had and can live with the knowledge that I did not give up.
I still hurt and suppose that there will always be some pain, but I know it will get better.
