Ellie I am sorry to hear about your surgery, and hope that everything will go smoothly!!!

Thanks for the words of support. Although I was venting, I did not vent on H, and am glad of that. It was a total moment of frustration, no response to my call of Merry Christmas. I was very upset, but I have spoken to him since. It is strange how he calls me when there is no need, and when he should, he doesn't!

Michelle...Happy New Year! I have decided that I am going to have a good year and focus on the positive in my life. It could be worse, H is still talking to me, and has not filed for D. Even though he wanted to split the cell bill 2 months ago, he still hasn't done it. (That one confuses me just a little because he seemed so gung ho...)

My own insurance will kick in at my job in 10 days, and I called H Tuesday to let him know, and left a message. No need for a response, just fyi...and he called back. Crazy man.

I still have moments, even 15 months later, where I miss him so much it is an ache in my heart. But I am on the right path, and I am hanging in there because, in my heart and soul, I know that is what I am supposed to do.

Now, if someone would light a fire under his butt so he would hurry up....... ;\)

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..