I'm sorry this time of the year was marked with sadness for you for so many years...though it warms my heart to know that you are stepping out of your sadness and staying positive.
I'm glad you went out - and that you had a chance to talk with your baby boy (and your wife). You're doing an incredible job of staying healthy - and focused - and it's helping so many of us in so many ways.
For all of us that stay focused and stay positive and work on ourselves...this will be a better year.
Xie xie ni, wode peng you. Wo xiang ni shi sifu. -Carlos.