Thanks so much for your encouraging posts ! It means so much to me ! I admire you ladies !
I feel a little annoyed tonight. I sent a TM to H asking him at what time he would be picking up the kids on Thursday, and bringing them back on Friday. He sent a TM back saying. 'I will be there at 5pm on Thurs and will bring them back on Sunday'. Well, it IS his weekend, but he usually takes the kids on Saturday, just for the night..so I was a bit upset that the kids would be gone that long, especially as I feel I have hardly seen them these Christmas holidays...so I sent a TM asking him to please inform me of such plans in the future as I would like to give him the kids whenever he wants them, but that it would be nice to know a little beforehand. Anyway, a few TM's back and forth and all ending in OK...(I hate that, it's so cold and impersonal. Oh well.
I guess I still expect too much empathy from H, and keeep forgetting that he is LOST and being an EGOCENTRIC teenager right now. And he may be for years and years to come.
Thanks for listening.
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Happy New Year to you!!! May God bless your 2009!!!
You sound really well....and I am so happy for you!
Praising God Daily, Remaining "FaithfulH" Me: 62 W: 62 D:33 S:30 & 31 Married: 40 Years BD: Sep 2006 Piecing: May 2007 2nd BD: May 2014 Working On It: Today
Happy New Year Cinders!!! Thank you for your support.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.
I finally understand that moving along is looking FORWARD to the life that lies ahead of us, with hope, faith and ambitions and a lot of love !
So to move along/on we look ahead of us and not back to what was or used to be...!!!
I so hope that everyone here gets to this point once the excrutiating pain of losing your loved one to someone else passes....
Today my H came in and kissed me three times to wish me a Happy New Year. It made me happy that we could be civil in that way and maybe on some level actually wish each other happiness to come. Then he said that ow wishes me a happy new year too...I said thank you and left it at that. We shouldn't linger on those things, but be thankful for what we have instead of what may be missing. It is only THEN that we can achieve true happiness and joy for ourselves.
I know that there is a path for each and everyone of us, and that it is the journey we take to reach our goal that makes us who we are meant to become, so we should make the best of that journey, and thank God for guiding us and supporting us.
May you all have wonderful friends around you, who support, love and share your hopes and dreams, who wish you well and catch you when you fall.
So when all is said and done we too may help another soul to find their way out of the darkness.
To all of you who brought me back into the light.... THANK YOU.
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Hapy New Year Cinders! I wish you all good things and bright tomorrows bringing your heart joy and peace. I am confident all your todays will be the best you can make them for you and your children. I am striking out a phrase from my vocabulary. I hadn't realised how much I say it, both at work where I have seen many changes this past year and at home in conversation,the phrase is "we always used to..... from now on I will do my utmost to guard against saying it...at least out loud! (I know my limitations!) My very best wishes to you for 2009. ((()))
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
