Sorry I have been gone a couple fo days...work picked up. Anyway...
I have the limited contact with her...I almost went into panic mode the other night, because when I called she just turned on the phone and handed it to the children without speaking. After the second child said goodbye, the phone just hung up. I did not call back or anything. Last night though, she called first...I am sure that she knew I was about to get to work, and was making sure I got to talk to the children first...but...I had the ringer off and didn't hear the call. I called back about 10 min later, and it was immeditally the children again...so I thought oh well, here we go again. But after I said goodbye to the second child, she got on the phone...she sounded more chipper than I had heard from her in a while. Our conversation was short, she steered it...it was less than a minute but it was great to hear her voice. She said she was going to go to a friend's house for New Year's Eve...makes me nervous though...this friend thinks I am the absolute devil incarnate...it is hypocrasy at it's finest though, as a few years ago her husband left her over an affair, for him to take her back a short time later. I prayed God's protection over her that no more poison will be allowed to be injected into our marriage.
I don't know how tonight's phone call is going to go...I really hope that I speak the normal hellos wirh her...but don't worry, if not, I will not freak out and do anything stupid.
I met with my counselor at my church yesterday...he gamve me a great book! It is a great one for making the changes in your life! If you are feeling drawn to God...this is an excellent book...I am through the first five chapters and have already felt new transformation within myself from it...it is written for men...it is called The Man in the Mirror, by Patrick Morley. If you're a man trying to get closer to God and determine what life is really all about, I recommend it.
I also met with my therapist yesterday...it went well. Much crying and stuff, but I guess its good to get it out there, right? Anyway, she feels that I am a good person...she compared me to other clients...she said the guilt and shame that has been all over my face are an indicator that I am, and that I was just going through spiritual warfare in my life. She feels that the problems that exist in the marriage are easily workable...she would like to work with my wife and I together...I sure with my wife was of the same mindset.
No text or anything from her last night at midnight...I must say that I am really not suprised considering the company she was with.
No baby issues and thank you for praying with me ms ladybug, you don't know how much that is appreciated.
As far as the mutual friend thing, I understand what you are saying...I guess that I just thought with some of the negative friends that she has, having friends around her that were more positive...ones that would talk to her with advice on the reconcilitation end of it would help...people she trusts, you know...
