I too thought that it was forever and built my life around him...Now I built my life around me...

You wrote
""I'm sitting here wondering how I could have been so stupid. I planned on him always being here with/for me. I made my life all about him, his family, and our girls"" please do not call yourself stupid...it is not healhty and if in reality then alot of us have been "stupid" but we beleived in it all. I beleived in it all and have gotten passed it. I too, lost my family, my kids were old enough to make their own decsions and they had their own lives.... I was alone except for this board and my best friend who still doesn't quite undestand MLC . It was like a double whammy yet you go on for your self. I know where you are and I have been through the same phases like your going thru now. It will be okay for you you just can't see it or feel it yet but it will come and you will be so surprised with your self...
Just keep marching ahead with your head high and shoulders back...it gives you a real great confidence and self esteem boost
If you need to chat one on one email me....Lis 7554@aol.com
ITSY

Last edited by itsy; 01/01/09 01:06 AM.

M54
H54
married 30 years
Prostitues and Other women "100's" 10/7/2004
Prostitue/Junkie girlfriend 6/04-1/07?
Left 1/5/05 returned 1/9/05
Asked h to leave 4/2005 Had to, prostitues
OW 5/2005 not a prostitue
Divorced 9/2006