Time for ME to change...scared as hell...

[theotherhalf]

the only reason at all I am tempted to call H is because the thought of him spending NYE with OW kills me. Not that I can stop him. I know that I can't. I just NEED to know.

[theotherhalf]

its just all so damb heartbreaking. BIL called a little bit ago to just say hi, see how I was, and to wish me a happy NY. And the tears roll...

[glamgirl]

Sorry TOH you will need to have some new NYE traditions. Will the girls be home later so maybe you can spend some time playing games with them.

Don't call, don't even bother. You have to lead your own life right now. Your h isn't a part of that right now, but maybe that could still happen in the future.

[theotherhalf]

No glam, both girls are gone for the night.

I know your right, just so damb hard to admit the end

and I really don't see H and I getting back together at this point or even in the future. It all seems that it's been for nothing...

[glamgirl]

Remember that good things happen to those that wait. You and your h may never get back together that is true. You can't control this, but you can go on and make you a better person.

Look at my sitch. H has been gone for almost 3 yrs now, but I still see hope.

Back off and let your h come to you. You will find peace TOH. It will come to you, when you least expect it.

God Bless!

[glamgirl]

It has not been all for nothing. Look deep. What is it that God wants you to learn from this journey?

[Andabelle]

Don't razz him about going to OW, or he'll do it for sure. I'm alone this NYE, too-- a lot of us here will be. Try not to dwell on it, hon.

Here's to 2009 being better than 2008.

[LL44]

Please. Please trust us once and do not call or contact him. *If* he calls, not ONE word about OW. Or one word about anything, just wish him a Happy New Year and get yourself off the phone.

Please.

[theotherhalf]

"What is it that God wants you to learn from this journey?"

I really have no idea. I wish I knew...

[WCW]

I made my life all about him, his family, and our girls. Now H is gone, with him went his family, I have no freinds, and the girls are old enough to have their own stuff to do.

(((toh))) This is so sad. I was so much the same with my H, I said just the other day I felt like I was an extension of him. I had to change that and move forward with my life. It took me a lot of baby steps and courage to make every single one of them that I took. You can do it too.

Make a strategy, make a plan, set your goals.

It's too late now for tonight but why can't you have your own party and invite friends over? Where is your own family? Why do you depend on H's family?

Again, I encourage you to find some activities to get you out of the house and get involved with other people. Networking. Volunteering. Call it whatever you want.

Many churches have NYE services. Go find one.