Time for ME to change...scared as hell...

[theotherhalf]

dear friends, this is going to be a tough one. Last year on New Years H was out of state at his brothers. He called me 1-2 times a day while he was gone. So I spent it alone but it was different. This year H is around but he will not call and I will not see him.

I'm sitting here wondering how I could have been so stupid. I planned on him always being here with/for me. I made my life all about him, his family, and our girls. Now H is gone, with him went his family, I have no freinds, and the girls are old enough to have their own stuff to do.

Here I sit, alone on New Years Eve...