Thanks Sir. I couldn't have explained that better. I know through posts it is NOT always easy to express the most accurate picture.

H is showing up for his work. He for the most part has been showing up for the kids. He did have a setback with the holidays. That was evident, but that doesn't mean he is unfit to watch the kids.

In many ways, he is a better parent than me, but he also is NOT with them 24/7. Has a ton more patience, hence what is missing within myself.

Now I do come here and vent, but that is what these boards are for. I do value what is posted to me, but that doesn't mean I need to follow all advice.

Thanks all for hanging in there with me. H came over yesterday and said he was doing much better. I am sure he got back on his meds and the holidays are over.

He has a Dr appt on Tues, we have MC on Thur, he has to make the IC appt yet. I would but they said he needs to, since it might be forced by me. Yeah like I am going to force him to do anything.

H should be here around 3pm. We are going to dinner with the kids and then ring in the New Year at 9pm with the East Coast.

Happy New Year all! Hopefully 2009 will be the year our spouses come home in droves.


Me 50
H 42
S 22
S 9
D 7
M 12
T 17
H moved out 8/2006
H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks
H moved home 5/2011 for good

"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"