I know how you feel, Hmama! I tend to be rather an independent person, and a giver rather than a taker. As a result, I tend to have friends who are takers and I see them when they need something. Even my family. My children have been so wonderful during this time of weird health I have been going through ... meaning, I rely on them rather than on those outside my immediate family. Thank goodness they are old enough otherwise I'm not sure what I would've done since H works away from home during the week.
I am in a foreign country, so I understand what you mean when you say that's how you feel. All I can say is that there are people out there who are like-minded, and you just have to keep trying to find them. They are the givers who are also finding it hard to find similar people because they just seem to be dealing with the takers of the world.
Not sure if I'm making sense ... the meds mucks with my brain sometimes, Ugh! So, I sometimes go in circles with my thoughts.
Anyway, I hope you find all the answers to your questions in the New Year.
Take care. ((((((love ya)))))
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim