LOL...Thank you, my friends, oh how I love you all!
I'm sorry for not posting--my H came down with a nasty case of pneumonia the day after Thanksgiving, spent 5 days in the hospital, and was sick for a couple weeks after he came home. Throw the holidays on top of that, and I've been a bit of a zombie. I thought I could handle it without consequences, and I did okay, but I admit I ended up feeling exhausted and immobilized--longing to move and be productive, but the urge to just sit and stare wins over...does that ever happen to any of you? He's feeling a little better now, and so am I--I'm trying to dig out of that sluggishness and get things around me organized and be more productive.
I learned a lot through this experience though...about being there for someone who can't give much back. I think we both came out of it with a greater appreciation for each other...at least I have, and I kinda hope he has.
It has been a year since I started this thread, and I'm pleased to say that I'm a lot happier this New Year's Eve than last. I'd like to think that we're both doing better at communicating and meeting each other's needs. I still have to occasionally remind myself to just relax and let him be himself. I find myself walking an expetation tightrope -- trying to find the healthy balance between our individuality and our need to be better at working as a team. Maybe I'll spend the rest of my life trying to find and keep that balance. But that's okay, there's joy and discovery in the journey.
