There has to be some way to get you to stop blaming yourself or feeling inadequate. That is complete rubbish. It seems as if you are reading the tea leaves incorrectly. He is the one who feels unworthy to be w/you b/c he sees your changes and how healthy you look and act now.
You've got to keep doing what you've been doing if you want a chance to get him back. Reverting into old habits and thoughts may get him back for a short run, but ultimately, he'll leave again b/c nothing would have changed to force him to reexamine himself for the better.
Stay on target w/what you are doing. Don't jump the gun now. Your efforts are working and working well. Now is the time to be disciplined and resist the temptations to deviate from working on you and living for you.
Your goal was to get him to notice, and he's noticing. Don't stop now. Instead, now is the time to keep going stronger in your current direction.
Have a blast tonight and just allow yourself to live in the moment w/out thoughts or worries of BF. If he's going to be on your mind, you might as well stay home b/c you won't let loose and enjoy yourself.
But staying in isn't living and you'd be defeating your purpose and moving in reverse.
Be strong, have fun tonight, and keep on going. Your progress is very, very clear to all of us here as well as to BF. Keep him noticing, keep him wondering, and keep him interested in you.
