And by that, I don't mean hope that my marriage would be restored, but hope that I would be OK, no matter what the outcome.
That was always my take on DB--that the goal was to make ME a better person, to make me responsible for my own happiness, and a nice little by product would be that I became a better potential partner and my M might survive.
I'm going to post a longish update later. So glad you posted again brue.