Mt-I know how hard it is but you have the answer--be still--for now.
Try to remember that if it is worth it, if it is actually going to work, it will take time and that is important for true healing. Please give both of you the opportunity to do it the right way.
Remember, this will be a new you, a new R, so the New Year is bringing that. So dont ignore the little miracles, sometimes they r the best kind.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.